Wonder

I wonder what it was like
When life was normal.
I can almost remember what it was like
To not pray for a miracle every day,
To laugh like we meant it
To dream like it mattered.
I remeber when our futures stretched before us-
A happy trail of light and promise.
I wonder what it was like
Back when my heart didn't feel like lead
And worry never consumed me.
When I didn't sit like a sentinel
Over the ones that I love.
I wonder what it was like
To go a whole day without crying.
I wonder when we will be normal again.