Hey, Mother Nature... (I am a loser...)

*You are about to be let in on a little secret- my dorky habit of making up new words to songs. Most of the time it's in my car and I make the words about how cute I think Pete's butt is, but in this case, I was inspired...)

"Hey, Mother Nature..."
(to the tune of Hey There, Delilah by the Plain White T's)

Hey, Mother Nature
Sayin' hi from here in Philly
You rained out our Fightin' Phils last night
I bet you feel so silly
Yes it's true
Bud Selig just can't bend to you
I know it's true

Game 5 got rained out
With the score tied 2-2
We're mad at Selig, and the MLB
And kind of mad at you
It's just because
We're Philly fans- we threw snowballs
At Santa Clause

Oh, can't you please stop the rain
Oh, we'll play Game 5 again!
Oh, it really is a sin
The Phils must have their chance to win
6th inning? We'll tune in...

Hey, Mother Nature
We just could not change the channel
Game was played on in a downpour
And we wasted poor Cole Hamels
Now he can't play
Even if the Phil's go all the way
But not today

Hey Mother Nature
Our poor fan sat out in poncho's
A line drive slipped through J. Roll's fingers
So thanks to the head honcho's
Who let 'em play
Now our win's so close
Yet faraway
Maybe today

Oh, please be our hero
Oh, no damp Victorino
Oh, I know the Phils will win
Oh, if they can just get Game 5 in

In other towns they laugh at us
Is it the curse of ol' Lindros
It seems a real big win won't come our way
Then Game 5 came, we're on the cusp
But then rain fell and messed it up
Oh will this soggy madness go away
I have to say...

This rain must stop
But we don't know just how or when
Now, should we be pissed of at you
Or are we mad at William Penn
It just don't fly
When you try to rain out Game 5
That's not a lie

Oh, let nature takes its course
Oh, The Phils will win, of course
Oh, and when the rain subsides
There'll be victory off 95
Oh that you can't deny

My Friday Night

Curled up on the couch
Away from the world
So stylish in Haines finest line of sweats
A soft, rosy pink, so unlike my mood
Or the bags softly draped about my tired eyes
But it does match the crisp, cold wine in my glass
And the soft, faint buzzing it creates
I have found a utopia in front of the TV

A Prayer for the Living

Grant us strength to make it through
The power to stop from hurting this way
The faith to see tomorrow
While blindsided by yesterday
Give us grace to heal our hearts
To place our anger behind bars
To take the raw, red sore inside
Never to cure, just become scars
We pray to end this ceaseless night
To lift our eyes up to the sun
To stop the tears that fall so free
We count them each- a thousand, plus one
And so we pray, we beg, we plead
For clarity in desperate times
And guide us with our hands in yours
For answers that we need to find

I Am Just a Girl

I am just a girl
And I can't change the world
I can't make fate bend at my will.
I have no consequence
Cant make mixed-up make sense
Can't make things that are moving stay still.
Can't procure miracles
Not a God, just a girl
I'm grounded and just can not fly
I can't move the earth
Although, for what it is worth
I don't think that I'd ever not try
But I can be a voice
Try to make the right choice
Do the best that I can every day
Be an example of
Those who show me such love
And are part of me in so many ways.

Wonder

I wonder what it was like
When life was normal.
I can almost remember what it was like
To not pray for a miracle every day,
To laugh like we meant it
To dream like it mattered.
I remeber when our futures stretched before us-
A happy trail of light and promise.
I wonder what it was like
Back when my heart didn't feel like lead
And worry never consumed me.
When I didn't sit like a sentinel
Over the ones that I love.
I wonder what it was like
To go a whole day without crying.
I wonder when we will be normal again.

No Words

There are no words now, when I need them the most.
The words to make everything okay.
Silent in my actions, I try to exist
As I move like cement through the day.
My heart fills my chest like a leaden weight
And my body floats in slow motion.
I see those I love before me as if in a movie;
Watching the screen while I fill with emotion.
A tear down my cheek, some food in my hands
All seem so useless against what we face.
And here at the table, a space now is empty
The rest of us left here in a brand-new place.

A Walk With My Husband

Crisp, fall air
Night falls so soon
Walking around with a warm drink in hand
The other hand warmed by the palm of a lover
My blessing wrapped around me like a shawl made of sunlight
Right now, in this moment, I would not be another
Speaking no words
Thinking big thoughts
Our footsteps provide a gentle cadence
For a moment my eyes close, I savor the sounds
Cars passing, conversation, leaves alive on the street
I am happy, right now, in this second I've found